I still feel so bad for my family's computer that i also feel that i need to harm their computer!

My software project is probably really gone, so i don't bother myself to start from the beginning to work with the same thing!!
I know, it does'nt help to yell here but i am freaking angry.

I don't have anything i can trust so much more than a lousy harddrive and computers, but only a gigabyte mp3-freestyle.

I don't have enough money to buy another mp3-freestyle with 40gigabyte harddisk i can trust much more and a new computer.
Well, i have money for vacation but i am not supposed to use them to even buy a new mp3-freestyle!

I hate my situation so much that i feel i need to change it to be much better, but i can't!