I'm bi-polar. I have PTSD. I'm mentally unstable. Right now I'm off my medication which is Abilify. Not by choice but because i left the pills somewhere. I've grown tired of living. People screw me over. I try to help. They can all rot for all i care. I love but am not loved. I feel alienated and abused. I contemplated suicide this morning. I'm just sick of it all. The more i try to help the more i let people down. i clearly can do no right. the smallest thing is setting me off. i collapsed onto the floor this morning and started to cry for no apparent reason. What the hell is wrong with me?
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I'm bi-polar. I have PTSD. I'm mentally unstable. Right now I'm off my medication which is Abilify.
That's probably it. Good luck with finding your medicine, and I hope you feeeel better.
I think what's wrong with you is that you're a teenager.
I'm not going to go so far as to say that everyone feels the way you do at your age, but it certainly isn't unique. Well, that and what Acrio said. Perhaps you should renew your prescrption?
Good luck feeling better though.
we're just a forum, noone here is qualified to hep you with anything other then to give what we feel is good advice. if things feel wrong, seek a counceller or ask a doctor to renew your pills if they helped you cope.
*ponders a few moments before posting.*
Be honest to yourself. You're certain this isn't just a phase? I'm not trying to read you; I don't even know you, and I'm certainly no shrink.
Take it all in stride. It's all how you look at something; I'm sure there's a man somewhere out there, living in wretched conditions, working to get to each meal, and laughing all the way. If there's some sort of uncertainty, or imbalance, fix it. If some inanimate thought is opposing you in the back of your mind; destroy it. I know I would have went through the same phase, but I noticed it coming, and took it head on. That forged me into what I am today.
To the others: A little support so hard to come by? 'Go see a shrink' is fine advice, but so is a little emotion, some, ya know, humanity? Or maybe I'm overanalyzing. I do that a lot.
~Nytloc Penumbral Lightkeeper
cheer up emo kid :'(
