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NICE AND COMFY !!!!!!!! Miss me you silly baboos? ^__^

Sorry I've been away for so long, but Dubzie's been busy spending time with Grandfather and getting the strips done. Check out the site this weekend, I am proud to say that after a lot of work, I've finally reached my advance set number to the point where I can now just do 2 a day. 😛 Drawing, inking, and coloring them all by myself is a chore, especially withe verything else. Its not easy. 😛 I'll start updates sometime late tonight or tomorrow if all goes well, I'll talk more about em below. In the meantime I've got a lot of other stuff in the mix as well.

I've had my comp back for a small while now, but I havent been on it. You see, lately - After work, I've been spending a lot of time with my grandfather. He's 87 and had a quite stroke recently for those that dont know.

Yesterday, we started retiling the kitchen floor in the house, and since everyone else was driving me crazy, I left to go spend some time with granddaddy and chek up on him. He's out of rehab and is in a temp nursing home until we can find a sitter with him during the day. He should be able to come home fully at the end of the month though he will probably never fully recover from the effects of the stroke.Its kinda hard looking at him like this.

He's always ben so spry and active. he's still got his sense of humor (I have to get it from SOMEBODY ^_^), but its not easy seeing him sit in that wheelchair and not being able to move. His whole left arm is pretty much pbbbt as is parts of his left side, though he's gotten a lot of motor control back.

He really does look a lot better and I figure once he gets home (which is where he wants to be) things will be a lot easier.

What bugs me though....well, not bugs me, but moreso just frightens me, is...getting old.

I dont like nursing Homes. I realize some of them are needed. But..I just dont like them. They carry suchan air of gloom over them.

Granddaddy met an OLD OLD friend he grew up with as a kid named Mr. Lockett and they do practically everything together. Mr. Lockett was telling me how his children didnt visit him over the 4th of July (mostly due to last minute situations they couldnt prevent, so it wasnt deliberate) but he seemed so sad at it still. A lot of people are like that,and some barely see thier children at all. I guess what scares me about getting old, isnt the fact that I AM OLD, but the fact that people, or my children when I have them, will forget me. I want to grow old and see my grandkids and die in my sleep and still have some modicum of common sense. You know, when I get old like my granddaddy, I want to sit out on the front porch and just appreciate nature and all that stuff.

I think what bothers me th most though, is that my grandfather is the only real father I've ever had considering that i dont really know mine. Yesterday in particular, listening to granddaddy and Mr. Lockett grump about like two old men just put a lot of things about maturity into perspective for me.

I dont want to be senile or forgotten or grow old and alone in a nursing home. I wanna be with my faily. They may get on my nerves, but someday, I guess my biggest dream is having a family of my own and being the father to my future children that I never had.

Its just something thats been on my mind for the last week or so. just felt like sharing it with you guys.

About Chip and Walter and Time Trouble - If I can finish about 1 more weeks worth of strips by this Friday (I think I can pull it off as I'm already coloring 2 Sundays) I think I can begin serializing them on my keenspace account come this Sunday. I'm gonna start updating the webpage (FINALLY) sometime late tonight. Cross your fingers. Hopefully people will like my characters and things'll go well. **blushes**

Surprisingly I'm kinda quiet IRL (EXCEPT around my friends and then I talk like a madman), but I'm MORESO about my own characters and creations, so this is really a _BIG_BIG_step for me. I'm too much of a perfectionist in that everything has to be right. 😛 I can safely admit that I am my own stumbling block. Part of the reason being is I'm just petrified of reaction I guess. Even though certain ones are named after close friends, I'm VERY close to my characters as I can say that each one of them, through all the silly gags and serious stuff is an extension of myself. I literally AM my comics. 😛 I'm just confused, worried, interested and about a million other emotions on how people will react to them. I take to heart a lot of comments,e specially negative since they are so much of me.

Thats normal I guess. Its just I'm too much of a worry wart.

Anyways - thats whats been up with me, so if you see any absences over the summer, I'm probably spending time with grandpa, working on CNW and TT and getting some sleep. If you have any questions AT ALL about the strips before I start posting em up, go on and ask me here. Feel free to ask whatever. I'll be sure to answer them making sure to leave out spoilers so I dont give away everything. But I guess I have to start somewhere, right?

Ah well. ^^