Wow... okay, I wasn't sure if I was ever going to tell anyone about
this, but it's late and I'm sleep deprived so i guess I'll just write it
now and regret it in the morning :/

First of all, - just for
some background: My mom died right when I was born, (she was actually
really, really hot- but this isn't about her. I guess that's #+@!@@ up
to say, but whatever.) I actually grew up with my dad's family, because
my dad has all sorts of emotional issues and he bailed before I was
born. So you can see, my childhood was really kind of messed up.

Anyways,
growing up I feel like there was always a lot of distance between me
and my sister. When I was about 17 or 18 I first noticed that my sister
was a hottie.

I don't want to go into to many details about it,
but basically what happened is that I accidentally found a video that
she made of herself. I knew she didn't make it for me- but I thought she
was so %%%+%%+ beautiful that I watched it twice. (probably would have
watched it a hell of a lot more, except that like right around the time I
found the video, all this crazy !**% went down and I had to leave home.
(My dad's family who I was staying with got in bad trouble with the
law. I never talk about it).

Sooo... I was totally lusting after
my sister at that point. She was also having bad trouble with the law.
She was actually in custody when I left home.

My friend and I
went to go pick her up. When I saw her that day, after seeing the video,
I have to be honest, I just wanted to !*!% her brains out. Looking back
on it now, it's pretty messed up- but I think she had feelings for me
too. She actually kissed me right after we came to get her... and it
wasn't a sisterly kiss, you know? I mean, it wasn't like ridiculously
sexual or anything, but it definitely wasn't sisterly.

After we
left, we all went to crash with my sister's friends. On the trip there,
my friend sort of implied that he wanted to get with my sister, and I
got a little jealous. He's a good looking guy- and even though she was
my sister- I just felt like he was competition. Not much else happened
between us for a while except some maybe-sexy hugging.

Pretty
much everyone in my life at that point was wanted by the government, so
we all moved around a lot. I'm not saying that I'm proud of it or
anything, but it was kind of an awesome time.

My friend and my
sister never hooked up I don't think- but I thought there was some
serious sexual tension going on between them. It was around that time
that I got really badly hurt in an accident. It was #+@!@@ up. I almost
died. But when I was in recovery my sister came to see me, and out of
the clear blue sky she started gives me this awesome, slow, passionate
kiss on the lips.

Sadly (although, I guess for the best) nothing
ever came of it. We spent some time apart... and I started to get really
religious, so I tried not to think of her that way. It was actually
going well for a long time- like I was totally over her. But I have to
say, like a year or so after all that stuff went down, we were out
sailing (not like a date or anything romantic like that), and she was
wearing like the hottest bikini I've ever %%%+%%+ seen and it brought
back all the old feelings. Sigh.

A little while later she actually wound up with my friend from before (the sexual tension guy). I can't say I was surprised.

But
even after she was shacking up with my friend, there was one time we
were at a party... my friend was inside, and my sister and I were
outside alone. It was a really intimate moment. I think something might
have happened, except that I killed the mood when I told her that Darth
Vader was our father and that I had to go face him.